yessss mom is gone until the weekend its time for tori to get stoned in bed all day everyday and drink vodka with dinner

I really don’t like the feeling of rejection. Or rather, just being something disposable. Because my feelings can’t be thrown away like yours. Unfortunately, you made my heart horribly brittle and sore, and I can’t seem to get it back to the effervescent feeling it used to have. I will not believe that my time was wasted by something that now, doesn’t exist. I’m disappointed that you’ve forfeited everything that we’ve built up, because you are scared to get left behind by me. However, you don’t seem to understand that I am completely submerged in this feeling. I can’t seem to surface the top of it and let myself believe that you could have let everything go so easily. I did not waste all of these months just to hear that you’re terrified by your own feelings. I did nothing to deserve this. You’ve abandoned the entire concept of us.  I’ve been twirling around your little finger this entire time, and you so graciously shook me off without warning. And you know what is so fantastic about all of this? I’m going to keep trying until I hate you. Until I really, really hate you. I have never encountered someone so susceptible to their own feelings. All I want is some evidence of  mercy towards my broken spirits.